Currently Listening truANT By Alien Ant Farm see related

"Tried to give you summer
But I'm winter
Wish I could make you spring
But I fall so hard"                             Alien Ant Farm

I love those lyrics so much and I also love

"And I
Just wish that
I didn't feel
Like there was
Something I missed"             Linkin Park

Yeah so my life has been a pain lately... trying to make it through this crappy semester... believe me crappy is so the edited version... trying to change my whole life practically.... just starting to realize how much ppl suck... wish i was on a deserted island with only a golf course... but neway... interviewing for a really good job, i hope i get it but i still dont know if it is really legit or not... anyway... just feeling really pissed lately, but not many ppl can see it cause i hold crap in... "Spit on your face? Id love to! If only i didnt love you!!" yeah thats alien ant farm and they are one of my top five...

middle finger and have a nice life

Currently Listening It's All in Your Head By Eve 6 WITHOUT YOU HERE see related

yeah so class starts tommorrow... not so happy about that one but oh well I cant stop it...got so much crap to do, but happy to feel useful once in a while, and this is the while... been thinkin alot lately about someone or maybe somepeople, who knows, one of the two anyway... so much to forget but trying to, not wanting to but trying to... so reminded of the scene in THE VILLAGE where they are on the porch talking, anyway, enough of many random bamblings.... how does hppytriggerfingr sound for a screenname... eve 6 rocks.... my new favorite song is WITHOUT YOU HERE....

love, peace out homie....

Currently Listening The Rising Tied By Fort Minor see related

So here is my side of the whole relationship story...

"I'll love you when your hair turns gray, girl
I'll still want you if you gain a little weight, yeah
The way I feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love don't change, No
I was meant for you and you was meant for me yeah
And I'll make sure that I'll be everything you need yeah
Girl the way we are is how it's gonna be
Just as long as your love don't change"
MUSIQ

to my future wife.... this song rings true... the only thing that i disagree with is... ill love u regardless of how your love is... ill love u regardless of anything...

I will always love God first.... but ull always be second... so basically now im working on being who God made me to be... im not worrying about u or even thinking about where u are... im focusing on God... so needless to say when i meet u ill know... until then u will be in my prayers... but Im seeking God first... and i hope u are

Currently Listening Open All Nite By Big Tent Revival see related

the idea that i could sum up the issues between men and women in one post is about as retarded as some of my past decisions...lol... dont comment on that please  

basically this is all i can really say that might help enlighten others but mainly myself...

1.  Men will never be able to understand women fully.... many may say duh... but listen... there has been alot of evidence supporting the idea that men have a slightly altered corpus callosum... the part of the brain that connects the two sides of the brain ( to all those non-psych majors).  During birth and early infancy testosterone moves through this structure and inhibits many functionings in the male mind.  (simply put... men cant possibly understand or sympathize with women in certain areas of emotion or even life goals).  therefore... sometimes things just wont be easy to communicate or even understand between me and women because it is the way God made us...

2.  Men... (yes this includes me)  John Eldredge wrote a book, WILD AT HEART.  basically when mothers tell their sons to not do something cause they may get hurt the typical response is to do it.... so in a sense where women are cautious, men are reckless... maybe not a bad reckless but considered that way... women do hold things in and men tend to let them out through venues of physical mastery... men try to let things out by working them off or being restless and getting it out on their own....

3.  Women... ok this is going to be horrid but... women have emotions and many more emotions that men cant figure out.  when u say u feel cold, we get up and turn up the thermostat... not knowing u were just wishing we would hold u close... basically it all comes back to communication.... neither sex's way is better but there needs to be a compromise... women need to tell more of what is going on in a straightforward manner and men need to (well i think maybe true... even though it is very hard to) try to understand women... when i say that its difficult to understand women im not saying women are difficult just that it is hard to even have the slightest clue what they are saying and thats the truth... its not anything about u its just the fact that the way u are communicating it doesnt hit me or make sense to me the way it does to other girls... just be patient with us cause its hard to understand but believe me... most men do try...

thats about all i can type about that due to this immensly troubling headache from thinking that hard... lol jk... so heres the deal... women, u will never be understood by men.... dont worry about that though... its just that men and women both need to try as hard as they can to work it out....

women.... take a step down and take baby steps in explaining whats wrong...

men... try to understand things, and when u dont... simply be there and try

Currently Listening Restored By Jeremy Camp see related

as i began thinking about how to start writing this devotion, i became aware of something.  so many times we fiddle time away with nothingness.  we sit in our chairs messing around on the internet and are just happy with doing nothing.  stop it!!!

"If you live in the light of Christ's return each day of your life, it does wonders for your perspective.  If u realize that you must give account for every idle word and action when u stand before the Lord Jesus, it does amazing things to your conduct. it also makes you recognize how many needless activities we get involved in on this earth.  sort of like rearranging the deck chairs on the titanic.  dont bother!  dont get lost in the insignificant details! He is coming soon!  Recognize the urgency and the simplicity of the hour!"   Charles Swindoll- Wisdom for the Way

Revelation 3:11   "I am coming soon. Hold on to what you have, so that no one will take your crown."

With this in mind... does it not make sense that a major reason of why we feel useless and bored and lazy is because we do not recognize the urgency?  wake up and take hold of this day.  dont sit there and wait for something worthwhile to do!!!  Pray and ask God how he would have you prepare for his coming.  whether it by reading his word, witnessing, praying and enjoying his presence, or by...

WAKE UP!!!

dear Lord...

Help me this morning to wake up in a state of mind that knows the urgency of my mission.  show me what YOU would have me do today.  allow me to use this precious time YOU have blessed me with to draw nearer to you.  thank YOU, LORD.  allow me to be who YOU destined me to be.

AMEN